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no, didn't see it before leaving!

Posted by sia nara on June 02, 2008 at 16:42:35

In Reply to: Re: good... posted by Farmer on June 02, 2008 at 15:20:18:

I didn't see it before leaving. That was something I saw in retrospect with time away. At the time of leaving I felt condemned and burnt out. What got me out was being triggered by the abuses though I didn't recognize how bad they were at the time. Thought I was bad for leaving. Thought I was condemning my family. Things got so bad, I jumped because I could not handle it, mentally, anymore.
Probably being a single woman added to that pressure.
There was a window of time when it was easier to leave because there was less supervision and scattered people in small teams.
From what I understand, the screws tightened later.
So I do understand how others stayed in later just as I can understand how Patty Hearst joined the Symbionese Liberation Front.