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Re: Sorry to hear that

Posted by Farmer on November 28, 2009 at 02:38:04

In Reply to: Re: Sorry to hear that posted by Thinker on November 24, 2009 at 07:55:43:

Thank you for your very kind words...I didn't want to come to the boards to get sympathy, but at a time, when things really got very interesting at the boards...I just didn't have time, due to being more needed in the "closer world of mine"...so I wanted to "justify" myself....

As I already shared with Joseph, the funeral itself (in Berlin) was very touching....my sister once told me, that actually all the duties in life...job...family etc. don't really allow you much to mourn and reflect...I took some time, when "death hit"....but then I had to "function again"....I am sure it will overcome me some other time again.

I had many a little or bigger quarrel with my mother...she was more direct and outspoken than my very softspoken father...in a way I have in stressed times more of her ; ) and I marvelled at how patient my father was in many situations.

Still her death hit me harder than his for some odd reason...are there stronger ties to the mother...even if you're at odds??...or was it just the situation being under stress workwise.

I am a bit betwixed between the emotional mourning side of death of loved ones and the joyful looking forward (including the question...if people had the right kind of faith : ( )...I think some "countryfolks"/tribes in Mexico celebrate death as some big joyful feast if I remember right.

What did you have to go through lately...if you allow me to ask that question?....(I think it even helps to vent here at the boards...to see that we all have likewise hardships at times...some more than others though, but it helped me to read about other people's hardships....it helped me to "keep my mouth shut" a bit more...when I am tempted to complain)