Posted by Farmer on January 27, 2011 at 01:39:45
In Reply to: Re: Long road since leaving in 1972 posted by Alias Hannah on January 26, 2011 at 21:59:19:
You're right...all honour belongs to HIM alone...also for the process of breaking and molding us again..
Consider this amazing, humble comment at youtube...a very recent one...related to one link you have in my post about further songs:
regarding the song:
Here I am to Worship (worship video w/ lyrics)
"Dear Lord, please forgive me, a sinner. I'm so down right now, I need your joy and life. I've sinned against you so many times I've lost count, and though I keep coming back to you I always stray again. I'm not the Christian I should be. I can't be the person my family wants me to be, I can't even tell them how I feel. I'm so sorry, Lord. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so alone and stressed right now. "Praise the Lord, oh my soul, all my inmost being praise his holy name..." (Psalm 103).
TheFinder6 vor 4 Stunden
Isn't that amazing...it's so honest and a lot how I was after leaving...or rather when our patchwork-family of 7 broke up...I really hit bottom...I almost thought: it's bottom-less...that was 1995...I had to get adjusted to the world's way of doing things...mastering jobs...having enough income and fearing about the contact to my lovedones...and I realised, only humility in the end wins over any fears...prayer and humility...it
forces you to bow down again and again...those were very tough times and kind of in the rhythm of 5 years I had bigger troubles/desperate times...for some time then I thought, I would be allowed, to find another mate again (kind of took it for granted, TF-style)...until I studied the Word in depth about it & found, there is no leeway about that...my take now & I am final about that...thank God.
Readjusting without too much help in the beginning wasn't easy...but I realised more and more, that TF couldn't be it...there was some fear, of not being radical enough anymore...displeasing the Lord...but selling posters & tapes became pretty much a job in Italy..kind of a treadmill...day in day out...worse if you seek the funds instead of just seeking the contact to precious people out there.
Most of all, I was concerned about getting my little ones grounded in faith & for their sake I looked around for a church I could fellowship with...to let them have at least for some time in the week a taste of heavenly things to come..to enjoy some Christian fellowship.
But I found to my joy, that there were so many farout Christian teachers out there/here...which made me think deeply about the errors/sins in my life in TF...for that I am super greatful....shepherding took place via different media...mostly books...but later also by the internet-platform and some friends/brethren I met after TF