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Re: explanations are good - pedophiles in the midst

Posted by Farmer on December 12, 2003 at 21:43:06

In Reply to: explanations are good - pedophiles in the midst posted by Acheick on December 12, 2003 at 07:41:32:

I agree with you Kafka, it should have tipped me off then already, but from the letters which were weird
& not in accordance with scripture, I should have left much earlier,,,when I joined, shortly afterwards the FFseries came out...I was hardly through my basic letters, went through the Bible as fast as possible, because I wanted to give answers
to people on the street...so I swallowed it...sad to say...given the circumstances...I still can say, that God forgives such sins of not speaking up
against those teachings, which I normally wouldn`t
adhere to or consider true...but it was the mixture of excitement of following a dream that
you held in your heart of becoming one with others
regardless of nation, colour or creed plus this
devotion to a man, whom you trusted with the
credibility of being God`s endtime prophet...not
believing that, was heresy...

SO THE ONLY EXPLANATION I HAVE IS: I WAS A SINNER

In that regard more than today, cause I was learning...& maybe that should be allowed here as much as I read that it is allowed in the orignial
GOOD NEWS...I don`t mean that fake....

I am glad, that people left earlier, because of their consciousness...yet I knew nobody personally
who left, making a big splash, challenging the letters & saying everybody is nuts, following
Bergianism...however very true, I totally agree
with all of you above, Kafka, MG & Acheick, we
can find reasons for reacting like we did, but it
doesn`t make it right in the purest of sense.

However I am not of the kind who believes to carry
that guilt days without end in your baggage, otherwise it would be the same for my "luggage"
for the time before TF and afterward...& I believe
I commited worse things while being out...in form of quarrels & fights, because we didn`t get along.
I fear, that sometimes bad words can be a worse
enough abuse...it may amount in a longer period
of time to that experienced in sexual abuse...but I can`t really tell, because I haven`t experienced it...(alright, if we follow St. Paul, then I abused through fornication my own body...bingo...so I damaged myself until I realised it!!)
Yet, in all I`d have to conclude, I was a sinful cog in that sinning machinery, but I would add,
that we are on earth to learn,... also to seek forgiveness & to forgive.
By the way...I am very thankful for the board, the participants & the courage of all to adress the long time needed!!!!