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if I didn't think I was somehow insane

Posted by lydia on September 08, 2004 at 20:20:24

In Reply to: an amazing story posted by Acheick on September 08, 2004 at 16:29:19:

I would probably have to kill myself.

I still shake my head and think how could this be??????????????????????

I just about drove myself insane (again) trying to deal with it all. I finally after apoligising to my kids and everyone I could think of, just had to let go and store it in the background. I mean how else to get on with your life? My kids needed me whole, I didn't want them to prop me up, I had to be their mother and fight for their education, and safety and welfare.

They didn't need a fragile broken down crazy woman to raise them!lol (thats what I look like in the inside!) But I'm just happy we got them out before it was to late. Before they were institutionised and us to far gone to make it with out heavier repercutions.

But what about the moms and dads who knew the abuse was happening, not just in Berg's house, but around them?

What about the teens who were having sex with little kids?

It's all just a total nightmare and totally sucks. I don't think it will ever be something that can be made right, just exposed and hope to God it never happens again.