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In Reply to: Some answers to your questions posted by Roger on January 09, 2005 at 19:32:13:
You say you bear me no ill will and you wonder about my intentions. This isn't the first time you said that and I wonder just what you mean - you think all I care about is having revenge or something? How petty. Firstly, I wonder if you really realize the impact of the last "incident" had on me? Just how badly treated I was. Judging by your statements here, I don't think you realize it at all. In that case, I'm not quite sure what point there is in me discussing anything as you will just dismiss it as me over-reacting.
But, neverhteless, "for the record", I feel that I was treated pretty shitty by the staff here and that was the main reason I quit. Yes, I don't feel that the beginning of what I started with is how things are run with the staff now. Maybe I just said things angrily and it came out quite strong, but that's how I feel in a nutshell. Maybe you don't think I was treated shitty at all, nevertheless, that is how I feel. You say my farewell letter went far and wide and that was what I intended - why you ask? Because I felt that people deserved to know what was happening and why. I don't like hiding dirty bones in closets and then acting all sweet and sugary like everyone is just peachy keen. I guess that just smells too F. for me and I don't abide by that anymore. I'm just not that kind of person. And you should know, if you are interested, that for the most part, the responses I got from the people I sent on my email list were all positive and in fact, just about everyone agreed with me. Maybe you think that this would be impossible as I'm getting the impression from your statements that you view me as something of a hot head that just wants to bring down your website, that I have no good intentions at all and that all of this is mostly my fault. How then, could people possibly agree with me? Maybe you should think more outside the box, Roger. I really hoped that it could trigger some soul searching on some of the staff part, but it doesn't seem like that is happening. Of course, correct me if I'm wrong on that.
One last thing, I'm not taking the time to go back and look, but I don't remember any "rebukes" from people, especially from Farmer, to Jules. If you call those rebukes then I'm getting this idea that you want a sterile environement from people to only say niceties to each other and never be honest or have any kind of debates where differing sides are presented. Yes, I admit I came on strong to Jules. Maybe I just had it with the throwing the guilt thing around across the board once too many times. And why spend so much energy accusing each other, why not spend that energy getting at the real culprit? That was my point.
And lastly, in your above post to me about having more empathy to the SGs was such a low blow. Don't forget I have 9 children I worry about everyday and I always, always think about the effects my actions had on them. I do have empathy. Because I take issue with a statement does not mean it defaults to me having no empathy or not being sympathetic, please.
One last thing, someone recently wrote to me and said they would like to complain to the coordinators about certain things going on with these boards and you know what I said? I said, I doubt anything would come of it, look what happened to me. So, I am not the one and only person who has these feelings.
Anyway, I really don't want to continue this on anymore. I think enough has been said.
