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My main point

Posted by Goth88 on November 06, 2005 at 19:17:04

In Reply to: Re: I don't doubt Eva's story posted by Farmer on November 06, 2005 at 18:04:02:

My main point was that I could not agree with "jojo" that Eva's account was exaggerated or an isolated incident or a rare occurrence as much as I wish it was. I got out before combo's and this was not my experience, what Eva experienced. But I do see that it was widespread in looking back because Berg advocated it and I heard 2nd hand accounts of people doing things. That I was on the outskirts and away from top leaders but heard through the grapevine about them and read in the letters what Berg was hatching and had actually already been practicing are things I realize in hindsight.
I believe that FG were much like people who are battered women or Stockholm Syndrome because we were fear based and fear driven and believed the horror over time and with lots of reinforcement.
That is why when I recount my experience of leaving I say that I thought I was wrong and weak for leaving.
But looking back after time and therapy what was occurring was horrible. It was widespread early on and by the time of Eva's experience it was worse. I wasn't around during the time of Combo's. But I knew something was coming where children would be expected to be adults at twelve and Berg had just written or I had just read "The Marry Time Dream". I don't remember the words but part of the pictures. That is how burnt out I was.
I just got mad when "jojo" states he or she beleived Eva St. John was exaggerating.