Posted by long time exer on April 03, 2011 at 19:06:35
In Reply to: Re: To long timer exer etc. ....: fears posted by Skep on April 03, 2011 at 16:25:12:
Perhaps it had to do with being a teenager when I joined. I truly believed what I was taught in the beginning and I believed that God could kill me if I left and all that rot. I would call it blind acceptance but it did not come from before the Family because I was very independent, though young, before encountering them. As time went on, I lost much of that "blind" acceptance, but still had a lot of fear. I was not from a Christian background upon joining. I'm guessing you must've left the Family when you figured that Jesus was the person to set your line by and not TF. Otherwise, I would think you could not live with yourself and stay in it, considering what all was introduced over time? A factor for how your experience was, could it be because you joined at a time when FFing was in full swing, and maybe didn't stay that long? Or did you get out before Berg's letters were declared the most important word for the time? Hindsight: Easy to see what was wrong when out of the forest and away from the trees. But while in the thick of the woods, not so easy.