hey loredana...


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Posted by ray on October 10, 2012 at 08:13:27

sorry it has been so long in getting back. just wanted to thank you agn 4 taking time to read the book, and commenting so graciously. writing it was almost a decade long process... not polishing the literary master piece :)... but rather trying to process the whole experience while living thru the aftermath of our personal apocalypse, while it keeps unfolding around us, and hoping some sort of maturity manages to break thru. the question about if the effort to try and find God in it all is one i've gotten quite a few times from fellow travelers. some have told me they see this as evidence i am still "under the spell" of the irrational magical thinking of a cultie, and wish i could shake the whole thing and snap back to the reality of a simply material existence. maybe it is all that baltimore catechism growing up, or stubborn denial, but to me it remains the whole ball of wax. there is a sense in which even w/ all the humongous errors and failures, we feel certain that God was w/ us thru it all. the challenge of sorting spiritual truth from delusions has been central to our recovering a sense of meaning. faith in a loving God has been the thread that has helped hold our lives together in the tragedies that have befallen us since. we really never wrestled over if God is, but the main event has been seaching for WHO God is. i can appreciate why many might choose to dump the whole topic, and my theology no longer tells me i need to convert the world, but our testimony is that thru many toils and strifes he has carried us thru. plus... like you say, it does give us someone to thank.

tx agn 4 ur kind words, and esp. ur sympathies for our losses. i do pray you will never have the experience, but also that what ever challenges ur life brings, you will find the grace for it all. blessings, ray


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